The secret may be out

This should be funny. Tomorrow we are going to a wedding for one of Scott's co-workers/friends. No one there knows I'm pregnant and we don't plan to tell until after the wedding. This is what I'm wearing and I won't be drinking (I always partake in an open bar.)

12 Weeks

How Far Along: 12 Weeks
Symptoms: Some hip pain
Showing?: My belly is definitely rounding
Weight Gain: Maybe a pound, depends on the day
Milestones: NT Scan

What a difference a week makes. Pants that I wore a week ago are now too tight. My fat pants are getting snug and my belly is rounder and firmer. I was hoping to be able to make it to about 18 weeks before telling work but I don't think that is going to be a possibility. My husband is, as I write this, retrieving my maternity clothes from storage and I am looking forward to the comfy elastic waistbands.

I am quite proud of the fact that I haven't gained much weight. By this stage in my last pregnancy, I had packed on 10 lbs. I am not proud of the fact that I haven't been exercising. It has been hot as balls here. At one point on Saturday, my car read 107!! So that's my excuse for outside, but there is no reason I can't be doing the prenatal yoga video inside.

In other pregnancy news, yesterday we had an NT scan done. It is always nice to go to the perinatal center because they have awesome ultrasound machines with giant monitors on the wall.  We got to see our little one sleeping. Not terribly exciting, and yet I could have watched for hours. We did have a brief scare, when the tech finally got the little bugger to move so that she could see its nuchal fold, it look huge (the nuchal fold that is). My heart sunk. She looked worried too. But a slightly different angle showed that in fact it was well within the desired range. In fact, our results came back really good...for a 38 year old and the perinatologist agreed with our decision to not undergo any invasive testing.

So with that and coming to the end of the first trimester, we are just about ready to go public. I am nervous about that for some reason. I don't know why. Maybe because it will make it all really real.

11 Weeks

How Far Along: 11 Weeks
Symptoms: Still some nausea and fatigue but it is getting better.
Showing?: No, but my gut is getting firmer.
Weight Gain: None so far!
Milestones: Baby is a fetus!

I had an appointment this morning. Should have been a quick step on the scale, pee in a cup, listen to heartbeat, see ya in a month thing. But when she ran the Doppler along my pubic bone repeatedly, there was nothing but the sounds of my innards (delightful, no?). I got a little nervous. I knew that at 11 weeks hearing the heartbeat on the Doppler was a little iffy but I was hoping we would get lucky and I wouldn't be in limbo for even a minute.

And it was only a minute. The ultrasound machine was quickly brought in and in no time we saw our little parasite bouncing around inside his comfy house. According the midwife, when they are that small and active it is hard to get a heartbeat. And apparently my uterus is tipped way back, which is the first I've ever heard of that. Anyway, that's enough about my girl parts. Munchkin is doing well and so is mama. No weight gain so far, in fact I was 2 lbs lower than at my last appt but that is mainly due to daily fluctuations.

A thought on gift giving

Dear friends and family,

I know that Christmas is a long way away. Well maybe not that far. It’s July now so the malls should start putting up their decorations in about a month. And I know my birthday is even further.

But perhaps some of you are already wondering what to get the girl who has wants everything. Let me help you out.

This is NOT a good gift.

It’s maxi pads! In a gift box!!!! They even have wings!!!!! What girl wouldn’t love to find that under her Christmas tree.

I’ve been wracking my brain trying to figure out the appropriate gift giving occasion for giving pads. Giving birth? Bat Mitzvah?

Shameless

With this pregnancy I have had quite a bit of nausea, especially early in the day. Yes, for me it really is morning sickness. When it finally subsides mid-morning, it leaves gaping hunger in it's place. I thought that I was finally getting to the end of it but this morning found me staring into the toilet bowl praying that I could just puke already and get some relief.

When I finished getting ready and went downstairs, I simply couldn't pack myself a lunch. Not only did that much movement seem unthinkable, but just the concept of food and thinking about eating later turned my stomach. Scott offered to pack it for me, but I couldn't deal with telling him what to pack because I couldn't think of food. This is a rare occurrence in my life. 

Anyway, by the time hunger hit, I had nothing to fight it with so I took myself to Chick-fil-a. I give you a moment for your mouth to stop watering. While waiting in line, I was so hungry I couldn't imagine a simple combo filling me up. I was soooo freaking hungry. So I decided to make it a large. But I was embarrassed. Because, you know, supersize me, American obesity, my own fat ass, etc. So I did what any self respecting pregnant chick sporting a  bit of belly fat would do.

I arched my back, puffed my stomach out and did my best impression of a noticeably pregnant chick who just wanted some freakin' waffle fries. I probably looked a fool but faux pregnant is better than fat girl supersizing.

I am totally rocking the Bella band today. Not because I am showing or have outgrown my pants yet (though they are getting a wee bit tighter. But because I am so tired of my fat clothes that I squeezed myself into a pair of pre-pregnancy (#1) pants that go over they hips but have no chance in hellen of ever buttoning.

Still, a few months ago I wouldn't have been able to get them over my knees.

More awesome than that is the weather. After weeks of 90+ with high humidity....





I think a lunchtime walk is in order!

Nice long update- with a suprise in the middle.

Yeah, it's been a while. That's just the kind of blogger I am...i.e. not a good one. I'll do a very quick update, that will likely end up being very long.

When we last spoke, I had recently dropped about 12 lbs and was working on dropping more. And I did. By the end of May, I had dropped 11 more pounds, making a total of 23 from mid-February through the end of May. Putting me at a non-obese 207 lbs.

230 starting weight-1/12/11
220- 10 lbs- Jump start-3/14/11
209- 21 lbs- no longer obese
200- 30 lbs -prebaby weight
174- 56 lbs- no longer fat
160- 70 lbs-Healthy weight

I was running regularly and getting my shit together. I was well on my way to MILF status. I ran a 5K for the first time in 2 years and was up to running 5 miles on the weekends. Jillian and I were homies. I was a regular on SparkPeople.

There is actually a 20lb difference between the left and right pictures.

Then something happened. I know what you're thinking. Another story about how she fell off the wagon complete with excuses.

Well, this time your wrong. I didn't fall off the wagon. I have been tracking my food and eating healthy. I don't run much these days because it's hotter than hells playground where I live. But I haven't been losing weight.

Because on May 29th, this happened.

Sorry it is such a blurry picture. My phone sucks ass.

Yeah, that's right. I am, as they say in England, up the duff. Which sounds really dirty but cracks me up so I like to use the phrase. How's that for an excuse?

I am very excited and a little terrified. One kid is a lot of work, two kids blows my mind.

I'm not out of the woods yet with this pregnancy and it hasn't all been peaches and cream. I was so excited when I made it to 6 weeks 4 days because that was further than my last pregnancy. Only to start spotting the next day. I was crushed. I was certain that it was over. I knew that we wouldn't try again.

But then the spotting stopped. And that wasn't all like last time. So I had a little hope. And then we went to the doctor and saw this.

Measuring perfectly. Heart beating wildly. Just like mine and Scott's. We were so freaking nervous. I was afraid to be optimistic, but there it was.

I am only 10 weeks, so like I said, I'm not out the woods, but I felt like sharing. Next week I have an OB appointment and the following week is my NT scan. Assuming those go well, we'll come out of the closet then.


As I mentioned above, I have been continuing to track my foods and eat healthy. I really, really can't gain like I did in my first pregnancy. To date I have gained only 1 lb. That is more attributable to a vacation in Tennessee than pregnancy though. I hope to not gain anymore in the first trimester and gain only 20ish for the whole pregnancy. For me, that means keeping very close tabs on what I'm eating.

I have switched to tracking food at myfitnesspal.com (eleesee) because it is just so much easier.

So that's up with me. I'll hopefully be back before 3 months have gone by again.